The Duchess of Sussex has also said that she considers life in the British Royal Family to be so unpleasant that she “didn’t want to be alive any longer” at times.
Meghan told Oprah Winfrey in a highly personal TV interview that she did not get support as she called for it.
She described a low point as when Harry was asked “how black” their son Archie’s skin could be by an unidentified family member.
The pair were not paying for their much awaited interview with Oprah, which aired overnight in the United States.
The pair discussed bigotry, mental health, their friendship with the media, and Royal Family politics during the two-hour CBS special, which will air in the UK on ITV at 21:00 BST on Monday night and on ITV Hub, courtesy of Harpo Productions/CBS.
Such noteworthy revelations include:
The couple revealed that their second child, expected in the summer, would be a daughter.
Three days before they were formally married at their public wedding in May 2018, they exchanged vows in a service conducted by the Archbishop of Canterbury in their “backyard.”
Harry said that his brother and father were “trapped inside the Royal Family’s scheme.”
He said that at the start of last year, his family cut him off financially.
Harry, on the other hand, said he loved his brother “to pieces” and wished to mend his friendship with him as well as his father.
After the Duke of Edinburgh was admitted to hospital last month, Meghan said she called the Queen.
Since officially stepping down from royal duties in March 2020, the pair relocated to California, and it was revealed last month that they would not be returning as serving members of the Royal Family.
Meghan revealed that she became depressed because she was restricted about what she could do, adding that she would not leave the house for months at a time.
She told Oprah that she wished she “did not feel lonelier” at one point.
When Oprah asked whether she was concerned about self-harm or suicidal feelings, the 39-year-old said, “Yes.” This was crystal clear.
It’s very straightforward, and it’s also very frightening. I didn’t know where to move in that situation.”
Meghan described a photograph from an official function she attended with Harry at the Royal Albert Hall when she was pregnant as “haunting” her.
“I had just had that conversation with Harry that morning, right before we had to leave for that (event),” Meghan said.
“That you don’t want to be alive any longer?” Winfrey inquired.
“Yes,” Meghan Confirmed
She said she went to the event with Harry that night because she couldn’t bear being “left alone,” and she remembered Harry clutching her hand closely when they were both together at the Royal Albert Hall.
Oprah also questioned Meghan on whether she believes the Royal Family did not make her son Archie a prince, which she had requested so that he would have police protection.
Because of a provision in effect since 1917, the Duke and Duchess of Sussex’s children do not immediately become princes or princesses unless the Queen intervenes.
“We had the talk that he won’t be given protection, he won’t be given a title, and also questions and discussions about how dark his skin would be when he was born during those months when I was pregnant,” Meghan said.
She said that the comments regarding skin color were directed at Harry, who then relayed them to her.
When Oprah asked Meghan if she was worried that her child might be “too brown,” Meghan said, “If that is the inference you are making, that is a pretty good assumption.”
She declined to say who the individual was when asked, saying, “I think it would be very harmful to them.”
“The talk, I am never going to share,” Harry said when asked for more information.
“At the time, it was uncomfortable, and I was a little taken aback,” he said.
Following the bigotry he claims his wife faced from the public, the 36-year-old prince said that none of his family spoke out in defense of Meghan.
“Over the course of those three years, no one in my family said anything. The stings, “Harry remarked.
The Royal Family was also accused of failing to defend the Duke and Duchess of Sussex during the interview, with Meghan claiming that the crisis “started to really escalate” after the pair married in May 2018.
“I realized that not only was I not being shielded, but that they were able to lie to defend other family members, but not to say the truth to protect me and my husband.
She was referring to reports that she had made the Duchess of Cambridge weep over a dispute over flower girl outfits, which sparked a barrage of tabloid headlines.
Meghan said that the exact reverse occurred. Catherine later apologized, taking roses and a note to make amends, she said.
Harry joined his wife and Oprah for the second half of the interview and discussed his friendship with the rest of his family.
He said he and his grandmother, the Queen, have a “pretty strong” relationship and that they talk often.
His relationship with his father, the Prince of Wales, has, however, deteriorated.
Harry said that his father has “really let him down.” He went on to say that he will always love him, but that “a lot of hurt has occurred.”
His father and brother were “trapped inside the machine” of the Royal Family, he said.
He went on to say, “They don’t get to go.”
He said he and Prince William were on “different directions.”
The interview broadcast when Harry’s grandfather, Prince Philip, was recovering from a cardiac operation in hospital, despite the fact that it was taped before he was admitted.
Meghan said she called the Queen “just to check in” as he was admitted to the hospital.
She described the monarch as “always lovely to me,” recalling how they shared a blanket when traveling between visits.
After the pair declared their decision to step down as senior royals at the beginning of last year, Harry’s family cut him off financially, he said.
Deals with Netflix and Spotify, he said, were “never part of the scheme,” but they were essential to pay for security personnel.